::past..present..future::

dear me..

past is past..

you can always look at the past..

but there is nothing you can do to change it..

no one will undo the past..

future is future..

you can always plan the future..

but there is nothing you can do to make it happen..

no one will..

haih..looking back my previous years..time zaman-zaman jahiliah..there is a lot a mistake ive made.sengaja or not.such a stupid mistake.which i regret for the rest of my life.sisi gelap saya yang ta bole luput sampai bila-bila.*sigh* well..everybody made a mistake.that what we call human..

read back all those message ive got.all the story made off..the song which being dedicated.really made me sad.this is not what i planned.this is not what i want..but i need this.sometime..i really need to be selfish.i will not let go things that ive got.never.ever..

im so sorry for let you down.im sorry..and i regret for what happened between us..for whats happened to you..but not exactly regret with all the thing ive got..you know what i mean here right???

all this thing is beyond my control..oke..almost feel good bout this.but still wish we can have a pillow talk.ahahha..something that can never happen i guess..owh..whateverlah..im happy right now.hope you get the same feeling too.wish you all the best in your life dear..

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you
You are my only my only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one

-cdt to yellowcard-

ps:aku sayang kamu..oke???

::sumpah..i didnt know::

shyt..aku terlepas pandang sesuatu yang penting.asal la aku boleh lupa??cis..cis..cis..siyeshytla..ak mau mintak maaf weh.mane aku tau kau jadik camtu sebab aku..aiseh..ak telah memperbodohkan dan diperbodohkan oleh diri aku sendiri..adoyaii..cane la aku nak berhadapan dengan dia..i feel worse..

weh..im so sorry..didnt know that kau makan hati dengan ape yang berlaku antara kita.perkenalan yang kurang baik..i guess..shytla..siyes aku tade niat pon nak wat camtu kat kau..how i wish masa boleh undur balik..but aku dah terlanjur sayang ngan dia..and im depressed.rasa cam dri sangat selfish.

after all that happened to us..i wish that we can start it over again.shytt.really sorry for what happened..no wonderla if you hated me..i can take it.but please forgive me..wish one day we will sit down and have a deeper conversation with me.i really need to solve this matter.after all i cant sleep tightly.this sin will hunt me down.yet i really regret it.for what happened between us..

Tidak sukar untuk kumembaca hatimu...
bila mata lebih lantang bersuara...
apa kupercaya
dedaun mekar di pepohon
rupanya gugur di musim luruh...

Dalam diam cinta telah merubah hati
dalam diam persimpangan menanti..
bila berdampingan jalinan mesra tiada lagi
tiada sinar kasih menyinari

mungkin dirimu dah ada pengganti
yang mengukir senyuman hatimu dah dicuri
mungkin juga diriku sudah menyusahkan
tidak sempurna lagi..
apa itukah di hati

demi kasih kita...
katakanlah sayang...
hanya awan mendung yang kan menanti kita
tak guna berpura jika hati tawar
oh demi kasih kita...
ikhlaslah padaku..
masihkah punya ruang di sudut hatimu...
atau dah tertutup pintu di hatimu...
katakanku ingin tahu...
ingin tahu kerna masih sayangkanmu..

daku faham bibir enggan berbicara
mungkin tak sanggup lihat kukecewa
setelah sekian lama
impian dibina bersama
namun takdir punya kisah berbeza...

tak terbayang pedih rasa di hati
tak pernah kualami
tak bisa diubati
tanpamu di sisiku..
bagai hilang punca
kuhilang segalanya..
hanya kau yang ku cinta

cdt to:erra fazira-ingin tahu.

ps: sumpah aku xpenah tau dia amek berat sal aku lebeyh dari kau..sumpah aku xpenah ubah diri dia.sumpah aku xpenah doakan korang jao..sumpah perasaan bersalah tu xpenah kurang dari hati aku.sumpah aku sayang korang.

::entry kosong::

to you..if you read this.which i believe you dont..

i need such a loyal friend not a backstabber..i almost death thinking bout this kind of people.i used to think why they behave like immature idiot???it wasnt funny when you involved in this kind of feeling conflict.and it became worse when all people that you love involved in the same conflict too and it even worse when you have no body to trust.*sigh* forgive me if im wrong.

i cannot handle this kind of conflict.not for this moment.yet i have my own problem which ive to deal with.im so sorry.sorry you have to experience this kind of feeling.which obviously not so guwd. not so sweet.not nice at all.*sigh again*

i wish..you will wake up one bright morning thinking.all the mistake that you ever made.thinking bout all the feeling that you ever hurt.thinking that all the people that you love.that you care.we all love you.care bout you.but please change you attitude toward others.otherwise just forget bout this lil friendship.i dont want you wake up one day and regret for all misbehaved you did before.

ps: ingatlah orang yang tersayang..and ive tried hard enough towin your heart.but it never work.hye..what kind of steel your heart made of??i always thought the fact that you hates me.. and its true right??my instinct never lie..

::another trip to cameron highlands.::

trip to cameron highlands.malas mau cakap banyak.kasik tengok gambar sudeyh.nah.kang kata aku kedekut pulak.

::tempat penginapan::

-alina motel,tanah rata-

::kasik urut dulu kaki b4 bersiar-siar::

-pusat urutan refleksology,tanah rata-

::mari makan stoberri coklat::

-pasar malam brincang-

::taman kaktus::

-mardi-

::bunga daisy::

-mardi-

::bunga mawar::

-mardi-

::bingkai gambar buatan manusia::

-mardi-

::menangkap dan ditangkap::

-mardi-

::tugu manusia::

-mardi-

::menuju puncak::

-mardi-

::menuruni puncak::

-mardi-

::edisi menjual buah-buahan::

-agropark-

::ladang teh::

-cameron valley-

::hooreyy::

-cameron valley-

::tengah-tengah ladang teh::

-cameron valley-

::kena tangkap lagik::

-cameron valley-

::sebelum bertolak pulang::

-alina motel-

akiviti kami di cameron selama 3 hari 2 malam adalah bergambar.bersiar-siar.makan.tido.berdekak.bergambar.bergambar.dan bergambar.sekian.

ps:mekaseh kepada gf am dan kuarga sebab bagi pinjam kembara dan atas makanan yang sedap-sedap belaka.trip ni memang superb.

::review murder::

hello folks..

urmmm..what is in your mind if you guys see or involve in murder??insane??scare to death??try to solve the case???

yeah.thats what happening to this police guy name ling kwong starred by aaron kwok in the latest hong kong movie name "MURDER".this guy trying harder to solve the case.its begin when he woke up one day from fainted in dilapidated building where his operate one case and he losing his short term memory. next to him is his colleague died with the bloody holes full in his body which made by electric hand drill. his colleague who was murdered violently is the third victim of the bloodletting murders.

this serial killer love to see the victim watch how they died slowly, painfully and in imaginable way. after killed his victim, his soon leave the crime scene with no track and clueless to all the policeman.in order to catch the cruel serial killer and took a revenge on his friend death, ling kwong in very best way to solve the case.but everytime he went through the clues, he finds that all the clues are pointing at him and it become even more suspicious when he dig all the information about the murder.its complicated to ling.

the lost of the short term memory really drive him to the madness. his losing the trustworthy towards himself. he dont know who the killer is. how the killer select his victim. what drive him to kill. it is him who killed all the victims??all we can see in "MURDER"..

watch out.you maybe the next!