20090831

::merdeka::

saya masih belum merdeka..sampai bila-bila pon saya tak kan merdeka..dan saya tanak merdeka..

ps:selamat ulangtahun kemerdekaan Malaysia..yang ke-52.semoga anda tabah.


20090830

::i miss u guys::

bila aku undurkan masa sebentar untuk melihat ke belakang..wah..rupanya banyak juga bende yang aku dah tinggalkan jao2..suddently aku rasa rindu+terharu dengan apa yang aku dah pernah lalui selama hidup kat muka bumi nie..jap..jap..tolak lah masa kecik2..pe je yang aku tahu sal hidup ye tak??ye..aku rindu sangat-sanagt zaman dulu.dari zaman sekolah rendah sampaila zaman aku amek diploma kat melaka.aku rindu kat kawan-kawan lama..

yanti.nazihah.azman.farhana.lina.sawa.siti.nazirah.tengku.mai.--->
zmn skola d phg*empat yg dibold itu boleh kata geng2 femes kat skola rendah akula.xkawan ngn dak2 biasa..kami ni picisan je.heh*

yati.farah-d.farah-h.fazliana.zura.---->zmn skola ren kt ipoh
ayubekham.ita.fidah.dayah.dell.emma.--->men ren di ipoh
zam.zue.yoi.meme.ayoi.muni dan dak2 kelas sains 4.--->men atas jga di ipoh
liza.linda.asyidah.shima.mai.timah.shera.dak2 kpmm.--->dip kat mlk
dak2 yg pernah serumah dengan aku masa kat kpmm.


rindu mahu main tulis-tulis surat pastu passing time rehat.cerita tentang cikgu2,classmate ngan dak2 yang kita admire sama-sama.rindu nak berjanji mahu ponteng sekolah sama-sama.rindu mahu mengumpat cikgu2 terutamanya cikgu seram ngan cikgu haridantarikh.rindu nak wat-wat bizi jalankan tugas sebab xnak nama kene panggil dengan ketua kumpulan pastu kena jumpa ngn cikgu azlin.giler nak men basikal keje nak berjalan ke rumah orang je masing-masing.rindu nak berkelah kat longkang depan rumah hanita yang bile petang ramai je dak2 kecik men bola kat padang depan tu.rindu nak beradventure sama-sama merayap masuk rumah yang dalam proses pembinaan men cop2 rumah konon2 pemaju tengah wat untuk kita.berangan.rindu nak men ejek2 nama dak2 lagi esp kalisperi si ikan pari.giler sampai rumah dia kita pergi ejek nama dia.sanggup.rindu nak wat dajal kat budak2 yang kurang ajar cam gajendra sampai sanggup masukkan air asam jambu yang kita sume dah wat air basuh tangan ke dalam air teh dia.ahahhaha..rindu nak kena kan makcik yang jual bahulu kat taman perumahan sebab bahulu dia sangat sedap.siap berlakon sesi interview bagai untuk dapatkan bahulu percuma.ye.kita memang bijak.rindu mahu beli air soya atau lengkong ngn jambu 30sen kat pakcik van yang selalu parkir tepi pokok besar tempat budak2 laki hisap rokok tu.rindu mahu men teka-teki dan bergossip masa nak tunggu bas sekolah kat depan petronas.rindu nak berlarian di padang sekolah.men bola jaring.bola baling.bola tampar.hoki.badminton.rindu kat semua aktiviti yang aku pernah buat dengan semua kawan-kawan aku.

siyes.banyak kenangan.rindu sangat-sangat.xleh nak ungkap ngan kata-kata.ak dah banyak berubah.mebi.tapi aku tetap kawan yang korang kenal.masih tetap comot macam dulu-dulu.masih tetap dengan on-off bila bab bertudung nie.masih tetap bergelak sakan tanak berhenti.masih kekal dengan ketinggian 160cm xberubah dari form 3.*gile aku memang rendah.*tapi aku tetap ingat kat korang.even sekarang kita semua ada haluan hidup.ada komitmen masing-masing.

haih.aku rindu korang.ape yang korang wat sekarang ye?selain mengholoh kat katil.ye aku tahu sekarang memamng time tidor..eyh..korang xsahur ke???ah..tak kisahla kan..pe je yang korang wat..katne je korang berada.dengan siapa pun korang bersama.aku tetap doakan kebahagian korang.aku tetap doakan hubungan kita xkan putus.semoga hidup kita semua dilimpahi dengan rahmat dariNya.selamat bersahur semua.oke.ak mahu tidur.

ps:kalau kawen jangan lupa jemput aku.xkirala aku pergi ke tak.paham??

20090828

::current mood:malas::

*cuaca redup*mellow yellow*

haih.dari balik interview manager ktm tadi..tido sampai kol 4.30..tssssskkkk..hari jumaat yang aman damai lagi sejuk mmg best kalau dipenuhi dengan aktiviti tido.tambah2 lagi bulan puasa.memang malas mahu bergerak.

semalam dah tido lambat.feeling2 sebab kena tinggal.kakak sume xmau bawak balik rumah mak. benci betol.sedey2.nanges sorang2 kat bilik.rindu mak.rindu masakan ekceli dengan air teh tanpa gula.tu bende wajib di bulan puasa.okey.takpe.ada ubu ada batas.petang mak mesej.balik.balik.nanti amek kat stesen bas.reply kat mak cakap xpelah,len kali sebab bajet nak balik xde.oke.mak xreply sampai sudah.kecewa.

bangun2.semayang asar.men gem kat hp.sampai kol 7.malas ke cafe membeli makanan, sudahnya buka puasa dengan sebijik epal hijau.dadih stoberi ngan air nescafe panas.kek pisang suku pun xsampai aku makan.xd selera.siyes aku kecewa.

xpe.mungkin len kali naseb akan lebih baek.insyaAllah.heh.time siaplah.aku mau riak..ahahah~
rindu dd.skang dah jarang mesej2 sama itu lelaki.tetiba teringat hp yg hilang..kalau hp tu masih ada kan bagus.xpe.xd rezeki.kepada pengambil ak tatau mau cakap pe..tunggulah saat kau kena camtu balik..xnak..lebih teruk baru best..ye aku berdendam ngan kau sampai mati kau tau?kau dah susahkan hidup aku.kalau kau jujur mesti kau xamek hp tu.*carut-marut*

ps:aku mau stadi.kames ada exam 2 paper skali gus.pagi dan petang.Ya Allah.berikan aku kekuatan.amin~

::lame::

lame..lame..lame..

mana sume org pegi nie??bulan pose sume pakat2 membuta je ke??haih..


ps:rindula masakan mak..sori xleh blk..bz ngn asg n exam..duh!

20090825

::bye-bye cineleisure::

*sob..sob*

haih..have to letgo my premier of murderer tonite..but thats oke.got some other time to do others contest after this.yeah.a bit frustrated for me.all the hardwork is like membazir lak kan..

but..but..yeah..have a concrite reason for not going..
- i dun have any transport*the movie start a bit late and for sure will end up like 12 something..
and if i stay at my sis house, ill have to travel back to ukm which i hve an exam..*sigh*
-exam..and didnt stady much yet..
-rushinglah*finished class around 6 and nak berbuka lagi..how??*


ps: for those who can make it tonite..wish you enjoy the show..=]


::its murderer tickets pepel::

hey..hey..woke this morning,checking my email and surprise me..ive won again a premier tickets for murderer screening. it will be held at cineleisure, damansara.gosh.how i gonna get there??

finish my class around 6 something and rush to cineleisure???gee..mebi have to let go the tickets..
but,currently me is really high motivated lah.this is the second time ive won a tickets..yeah..

ps:wonder..wonder..wonder..

20090823

::hilang::

hurm..aku tengah sedeyh nie.handphone sony e aku hilang semalam time bukak pose.kepada orang yang amek tu.aku malas mau cakap banyak.kau dah besar.kita jumpa kat akhirat je lah.

yelah salah aku.aku cuai.aku manusia biasa oke.dah malas mau cakap lagik.hati sakit.sedeyh.sedeyh.byk siot kenangan ngn hp tersebut.beliau byk berjasa kat aku.

btw,sape2 nak contact aku still boleh.contact no maxis la.yg hlg tu no celcom.sekian selamat malam.semoga tabah kau di luar sana sayang.ada rezeki kita akan jumpa lagik.wa3..

ps:aku sgt syg dia..hp se=[

20090820

I Don’t Want to Rest in Pieces like Final Destination



i still remember those day since my cousin was hitted by lightning thunder.i only 7 years old that time.i was so scared to death. it happened about 17 years ago.

it was a bright and windy day that evening. me and my siblings together with my cousin was planning to play a kite at my school field that day. we all so happy to see the kite fly high in the air. we run here and there while the mouth keep mumbling to each other.we all compete one another to see who's kite is flying the most higher. while we still busy running and flying the kite, when suddenly we heard the sound very loud like "bang". it was so near to us. we all scream frightened."alamak..kilatlah..lari..lari.."

we run for our precious life trying to find some place where we can hide and covered up from the mad lightning thunder. the lightning fired anything in his way like tree, land, and others. the situation became choas where we screaming and crying like we all get the punishment from God for our sins. For your information, my mum does tell me about this matter which i really believed it in. She said that when the lightning thunder will hunt down anyone who did wrong in their life.

we hide behind the tree which planted near the field. we all pray to God for the safety of us. while we keep busy holding and hugging each other, my eldest cousin started to screamed in pain loudly. we didn't realised when the exact time he was hitted by the lightning. it's happened too fast. his face turn into deep red. his tee-shirt started to burned. what we do is just watched him laying down on the ground. we got the panic attacked. we don't know what to do. we just crying and screaming.hugging each others.

suddently, my brother said to me to call my mum and get the ambulance for him. i run as fast as i can to tell my mother the news. and my mother sooner call the ambulance to take him to the nearest hospital. my cousin have the third degree burned at the back of his body. but luckily, his still alive and survived from the death experience..

at this time, watching my cousin struggled for his life turn me into gratefull person. im glad im still alive in this globe. im glad i didn't burn into dust and swept by the wind. and now, every moment i see or hear the sound of "evil" lightning catch the "evil" person, i always turn my face around.cover my ears and shut my eyes tightly. and sometimes i just went under the bed where i guess the safe place for me to hide.



-scared to death-


we cannot cheat death.we cannot run from it.its like a hunger try to feed its stomach. it will hunt us down. but, i really hope that i will die peacefully not piece-fully. thank you.


ps: check out the latest movie from the director of David R. Ellis about bunch of teenagers who having the premonition about DEATH. what will happen to them??may they rest in peace?

::presenting final destination 4::

poster

20090819

::graduation day::


::logo ukm::


::congrate's all::



to redziz,acan,kak ecah,pejal,faz,fadillah azmi,and others

congratulation eyh..sudah grad kamu semua.doakan yang baek-baek deyh untuk kami yang masih di sini.all the best in ur life.wiwit~

20090817

::ticket::

yes॥yes..finally..i won a two ticket for orphan..oyeh~

पस: alredi seen the muvie.thumbs up~

20090812

::aku mahu..::

gelak puas-puas.rahsia kecil ku sudah bocor rupanya..cis bedebah..

hey mohd ruzaidee..diam-diam sudeyh.*wink-wink*ahahahahah~

ps:tp cuba kamu fikirkan..tidak kah ape yang saya katakan itu benar??kan??kan??

::review-orphan::

orphan-poster.jpg
-orphan-

the story begin when a couple lost their third child.kate and john then adopt one russian kid from the local orphanage.they took esther home with them.esther then get a home welcoming from the couple previous kid name max while the second child, daniel is less welcoming.

esther, who peeping the couple while having sex and expresses more knowlege about it grows suspicious in kate heart.her (esther) soon after she arrives pushed her classmate from the playground slide.max who saw her shove the girl then covered her by saying that esther classmate was slipped over.

kate, being warns by the head of the orphanage, sister abigail about esther weirdo, who later being killed by the girl.esther smashed sister abigail head with hammer after overheard the conversation between them.esther later asked max to help her hide the body and the hammer which seeing by daniel.esther then treathen daniel if he try to tell anybody what he saw.

kate soon get a news that esther is came from a mental institution in estonia called saarne institute.the situation became more chaos after the girl try to kill daniel twice.she then killed john and try to kill max.

could kate save her family from the psychotic kid??who is esther anyway??what are the secret that she holds??

watch "orphan" to reveal her secret..



20090811

::for enaa::

Aku Bukan Untukmu


Dahulu kau mencintaiku
Dahulu kau menginginkanku
Meskipun tak pernah ada jawabku
Tak berniat kau tinggalkan aku
Sekarang kau pergi menjauh
Sekarang kau tinggalkan aku
Disaat ku mulai mengharapkanmu
Dan kumohon maafkan aku
Aku menyesal tlah membuatmu menangis
Dan biarkan memilih yang lain
Tapi jangan pernah kau dustai takdirmu
Pasti itu terbaik untukmu
Janganlah lagi kau mengingatku kembali
Aku bukanlah untukmu
Meski ku memohon dan meminta hatimu
Jangan pernah tinggalkan dirinya
Untuk diriku
Sekarang kau pergi menjauh
Sekarang kau tinggalkan aku
Disaat ku mulai mengharapkanmu
Dan kumohon maafkan aku
Aku menyesal tlah membuatmu menangis
Dan biarkan memilih yang lain
Tapi jangan pernah kau dustai takdirmu
Pasti itu terbaik untukmu
Janganlah lagi kau mengingatku kembali
Aku bukanlah untukmu
Meski ku memohon dan meminta hatimu
Jangan pernah tinggalkan dirinya
Meski ku memohon dan meminta hatimu
Jangan pernah tinggalkan dirinya
Untuk diriku

-cdt : rossa

hurm..the memories remain..after all of suddent..this song represent "her" feeling towards us..i guess..esp for him la..logically..herm..ntahla..memandai je aku wat kesimpulan sendiri selepas dapat tahu pelbagi crita mengenai dia baru-baru ni.thanks to her for the priceless experience.but at the same time..i feel sorry for her..sorry for the chance that you miss..sorry for everything la..

ps:pls dont hate me..

::perhaps..awkward..odd..memories::


have you ever experience something odd??
and you dont know how to express you feeling??
have you ever love someone..
and its make you cry..
have you need something very badly..
and its make you helpless..
have you try to speak something..
and the right words wont come out..
have you ever been with someone..
and they steal your heart away..
you give them the hint..
to make them feel the same thing too..
you try harder to make them understand..
but you dont know where to start..
what you suppose to say..
have you ever meet someone..
and they suit you..
and you will do anything just to see them..
have you ever find your soulmate..
and you give your heart to them..
but they never return the feeling..
have you ever close your eyes..
and keep dreaming about them..
and how you wish they were there..
to accompany your night..
but they never did..
and all you can do is waiting for the moment..
for them to care..
and how you wish it will come true..
have you ever love somebody..
and you try harder to get into their arms..
to get close to their heart..
to get them feel the same akward..
to make them understand..
that you only need them to be apart of you..
that you only want to spend the rest of your life with them..
that you only want them stand next to you..
that you only want to share everything in your whole life with them..

ps:memories remain....




::dedication::

::past::
-statement:belom berchenta-

::present::
-statement:sudah berchenta-

erm..citer sal memori ni..igt lak zaman-zaman tahyul dulu..suke sangat dedicate lagu..wat salah dedicate lagu..wat betol pon dedicate lagu..rasa rindu je dedicate lagu..rasa menyampah pon dedicate lagu..ntahpepentah..cuma skang je da xd amalan-amalan tahyul camtu lagi..

banyak gak la lagu-lagu penah didedicatedkan cam:-
- only one
- look what uve done
- every breath u take
- a liltle piece of heaven
- dear god
- someday
- i wish u were here
- my only one
- more than word
- first love
- tanpa
- angin
- pastikan
- selepas kau pergi
- bla..bla..bla..ntah aku xigt lagi.banyak kot..

dah 4 tahun kawan..cam2 lagu ada..rindu lak waktu-waktu dulu..haih..

::past..present..future::


dear me..

past is past..
you can always look at the past..
but there is nothing you can do to change it..
no one will undo the past..

future is future..
you can always plan the future..
but there is nothing you can do to make it happen..
no one will..

haih..looking back my previous years..time zaman-zaman jahiliah..there is a lot a mistake ive made.sengaja or not.such a stupid mistake.which i regret for the rest of my life.sisi gelap saya yang ta bole luput sampai bila-bila.*sigh* well..everybody made a mistake.that what we call human..

read back all those message ive got.all the story made off..the song which being dedicated.really made me sad.this is not what i planned.this is not what i want..but i need this.sometime..i really need to be selfish.i will not let go things that ive got.never.ever..

im so sorry for let you down.im sorry..and i regret for what happened between us..for whats happened to you..but not exactly regret with all the thing ive got..you know what i mean here right???

all this thing is beyond my control..oke..almost feel good bout this.but still wish we can have a pillow talk.ahahha..something that can never happen i guess..owh..whateverlah..im happy right now.hope you get the same feeling too.wish you all the best in your life dear..



Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you
You are my only my only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one
-cdt to yellowcard-

ps:aku sayang kamu..oke???

20090810

::sumpah..i didnt know::

shyt..aku terlepas pandang sesuatu yang penting.asal la aku boleh lupa??cis..cis..cis..siyeshytla..ak mau mintak maaf weh.mane aku tau kau jadik camtu sebab aku..aiseh..ak telah memperbodohkan dan diperbodohkan oleh diri aku sendiri..adoyaii..cane la aku nak berhadapan dengan dia..i feel worse..

weh..im so sorry..didnt know that kau makan hati dengan ape yang berlaku antara kita.perkenalan yang kurang baik..i guess..shytla..siyes aku tade niat pon nak wat camtu kat kau..how i wish masa boleh undur balik..but aku dah terlanjur sayang ngan dia..and im depressed.rasa cam dri sangat selfish.

after all that happened to us..i wish that we can start it over again.shytt.really sorry for what happened..no wonderla if you hated me..i can take it.but please forgive me..wish one day we will sit down and have a deeper conversation with me.i really need to solve this matter.after all i cant sleep tightly.this sin will hunt me down.yet i really regret it.for what happened between us..

Tidak sukar untuk kumembaca hatimu...
bila mata lebih lantang bersuara...
apa kupercaya
dedaun mekar di pepohon
rupanya gugur di musim luruh...

Dalam diam cinta telah merubah hati
dalam diam persimpangan menanti..
bila berdampingan jalinan mesra tiada lagi
tiada sinar kasih menyinari

mungkin dirimu dah ada pengganti
yang mengukir senyuman hatimu dah dicuri
mungkin juga diriku sudah menyusahkan
tidak sempurna lagi..
apa itukah di hati

demi kasih kita...
katakanlah sayang...
hanya awan mendung yang kan menanti kita
tak guna berpura jika hati tawar
oh demi kasih kita...
ikhlaslah padaku..
masihkah punya ruang di sudut hatimu...
atau dah tertutup pintu di hatimu...
katakanku ingin tahu...
ingin tahu kerna masih sayangkanmu..

daku faham bibir enggan berbicara
mungkin tak sanggup lihat kukecewa
setelah sekian lama
impian dibina bersama
namun takdir punya kisah berbeza...

tak terbayang pedih rasa di hati
tak pernah kualami
tak bisa diubati
tanpamu di sisiku..
bagai hilang punca
kuhilang segalanya..
hanya kau yang ku cinta

cdt to:erra fazira-ingin tahu.

ps: sumpah aku xpenah tau dia amek berat sal aku lebeyh dari kau..sumpah aku xpenah ubah diri dia.sumpah aku xpenah doakan korang jao..sumpah perasaan bersalah tu xpenah kurang dari hati aku.sumpah aku sayang korang.

::entry kosong::

to you..if you read this.which i believe you dont..

i need such a loyal friend not a backstabber..i almost death thinking bout this kind of people.i used to think why they behave like immature idiot???it wasnt funny when you involved in this kind of feeling conflict.and it became worse when all people that you love involved in the same conflict too and it even worse when you have no body to trust.*sigh* forgive me if im wrong.

i cannot handle this kind of conflict.not for this moment.yet i have my own problem which ive to deal with.im so sorry.sorry you have to experience this kind of feeling.which obviously not so guwd. not so sweet.not nice at all.*sigh again*

i wish..you will wake up one bright morning thinking.all the mistake that you ever made.thinking bout all the feeling that you ever hurt.thinking that all the people that you love.that you care.we all love you.care bout you.but please change you attitude toward others.otherwise just forget bout this lil friendship.i dont want you wake up one day and regret for all misbehaved you did before.

ps: ingatlah orang yang tersayang..and ive tried hard enough towin your heart.but it never work.hye..what kind of steel your heart made of??i always thought the fact that you hates me.. and its true right??my instinct never lie..





20090805

::another trip to cameron highlands.::

trip to cameron highlands.malas mau cakap banyak.kasik tengok gambar sudeyh.nah.kang kata aku kedekut pulak.



::tempat penginapan::
-alina motel,tanah rata-

::kasik urut dulu kaki b4 bersiar-siar::
-pusat urutan refleksology,tanah rata-

::mari makan stoberri coklat::
-pasar malam brincang-

::taman kaktus::
-mardi-

::bunga daisy::
-mardi-


::bunga mawar::
-mardi-

::bingkai gambar buatan manusia::
-mardi-

::menangkap dan ditangkap::
-mardi-

::tugu manusia::
-mardi-
::menuju puncak::
-mardi-

::menuruni puncak::
-mardi-

::edisi menjual buah-buahan::
-agropark-

::ladang teh::
-cameron valley-

::hooreyy::
-cameron valley-

::tengah-tengah ladang teh::
-cameron valley-

::kena tangkap lagik::
-cameron valley-

::sebelum bertolak pulang::
-alina motel-

akiviti kami di cameron selama 3 hari 2 malam adalah bergambar.bersiar-siar.makan.tido.berdekak.bergambar.bergambar.dan bergambar.sekian.

ps:mekaseh kepada gf am dan kuarga sebab bagi pinjam kembara dan atas makanan yang sedap-sedap belaka.trip ni memang superb.

20090804

::review murder::

murderer-poster.jpg



hello folks..

urmmm..what is in your mind if you guys see or involve in murder??insane??scare to death??try to solve the case???

yeah.thats what happening to this police guy name ling kwong starred by aaron kwok in the latest hong kong movie name "MURDER".this guy trying harder to solve the case.its begin when he woke up one day from fainted in dilapidated building where his operate one case and he losing his short term memory. next to him is his colleague died with the bloody holes full in his body which made by electric hand drill. his colleague who was murdered violently is the third victim of the bloodletting murders.

this serial killer love to see the victim watch how they died slowly, painfully and in imaginable way. after killed his victim, his soon leave the crime scene with no track and clueless to all the policeman.in order to catch the cruel serial killer and took a revenge on his friend death, ling kwong in very best way to solve the case.but everytime he went through the clues, he finds that all the clues are pointing at him and it become even more suspicious when he dig all the information about the murder.its complicated to ling.

the lost of the short term memory really drive him to the madness. his losing the trustworthy towards himself. he dont know who the killer is. how the killer select his victim. what drive him to kill. it is him who killed all the victims??all we can see in "MURDER"..

watch out.you maybe the next!